“Miss?” My head snaps in the direction of the reception desk where a curly blonde woman in a blue aviator uniform complete with 1950s spectacles sits. She glances in my direction as I stand, others around me in the waiting room … Continue reading
I am the titanic. On the vast ocean blue.
people stare and think
Many think because they see me this way nothing can hurt me. I am invincible in their eyes.
but it takes a small mistake
a small scratch
a broken piece
to send me in a downward spiral, to tear me apart. to rip out my insides, to fall apart and become nothing but dust.
Never judge a book by it’s cover.
I can’t be in a relationship right now, because I can’t care for you. I can’t give you everything.
I will push you away. I will want to be alone all the time. I will snap at you. I just can’t put the energy needed for a good relationship right now.
I can’t do it.
I need to heal myself. I need to fix myself. I can’t fix you unless I fix myself. I cannot take care of you, If I cannot even take care of myself.
No matter how much I want you. No matter how much I want to meet you and hold and kiss you. In the current state I would ruin it.
You only get one shot, I cannot ruin my only shot because I’m a little sad.
So now I’m gonna go out and drink and give out free love.
But only a little at a time.
Only for a night.
You will get the best I promise.
I promise it won’t be long. I’ll be better soon.