I love me when I’m drunk.
and I ALWAYS know what to say
I don’t feel so much pain
I don’t feel so anxious.
I feel free
It’s made sober so damn fucking difficult.
Everything I do now is followed by wow this would be 10x better drunk.
It’s like I get to sit back and give control to someone else.
It takes over and gives me a break.
It sooths my aching
It tells me to relax and sleep
It gives me the opportunity to leave and never return.
But I know I have to hold on to the string.
just for now.
One day I will be able to let go
fall into the abyss